Don’t listen to yourself
Don’t listen to yourself, it is just an afterthought. This is what I’m told. The self I have become so intimately involved with all this years is made of smoke and mirrors. It has lured me into to this sense of belief that it is substantial. It has fooled me into believing that it is something tangible like my toe, or elbow. Yet I can’t think with my toe or elbow. Okay so I can touch my toes and my elbow but if I turn the quantum switch on they totally disappear as well. That’s pretty spooky stuff, so much so that it scared the hell out of Einstein and his buddies. Even the Newtonian’s would be uneasy pursuing linear logic if you were to tell them that like lemmings thoughts, feelings, emotions, come first before the ‘I ’. That kind statement is like someone pulling the rug from right under you. So who’s running the show then? Don’t ask the scientist or they’ll turn into mystics. It gets worst then because having an argument with someone I'm told is just you having that argument with yourself, so that makes things pretty awkward. So you wrestle with yourself to try and make sense of all this only to be told not listen to yourself. Where can you go from here? No good seeing a Therapist they’ll only medicate you. Maybe I’ll speak to that Zen Master again, but the last time I spoke to him I told him I was going out of my mind with not listening to myself he said “ That’s very good, but how can you be going out of your mind when there is no mind “? That’s the sort of stuff he posed and things got even more confusing for me , First I can’t listen to myself , Now I can’t listen to my mind because I have no mind, where can I go from here to find peace ? He tells me “you go nowhere you’re already here.” All this searching is getting me nowhere at all and I can’t do any searching because the Advaitans already told me to stop looking. So let me get this right then, I don’t listen to the Zen’s, Buddhist, Hindu’s, Advaitans, Mystics, Scientist. I don’t even listen to myself ? Okay in some strange way that makes sense. But who’s Listening then?
So the mystery continues and that’s how the ego likes it. Because it knows that for as long as your asking questions it is not that far behind. In hindsight Einstein, Newton, Mystics, Zen, Advaita, Hindu, Elbow and Toe were all right. They were pointing at the direction all this time. The only problem is that I was following their direction literally. I was supposed to stop.
